Sunday, 18 August 2019

face your fear

the brain is a peculiar thing
it holds deep memory
it pushes negative things into the recesses
and brings positive to the forefront
if you allow

despite living beside the seaside for most of my life
I don't swim but adore being next to  the sea
a lake, a river, an ocean
I have a fear of being in or on open water
born from a childhood incident
that I really don't remember
but my brain does
I walk the shoreline
dip my feet and ankles
but that's as far as I go
until this week ....
I felt the time was right to face my fear
with my hand held
I walked into the lake, to my waist
and dipped my shoulders under the water
looking at the mountains from the water line
calm breath, a smile
for a short moment I lifted my feet from the sand
I was safe
and it felt amazing

Friday, 2 August 2019

^^^ no holds barred

life is a journey
as long as you keep moving forward


“the free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - 
basically because you feel good, very good, 
when you are near or with them.”

― Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Madness

Thursday, 25 July 2019

--- oui ou non

the tug of war between definitives
questions
invites online
rsvps
we want answers now
yes
or
no

or maybe
now this word has been good to me
the get out card of commitment
a nice bold question mark
?
I've over used it
it was my knee jerk reply
until recently ....
in realisation that good opportunities can be seized
when they come your way
the value of feeling able to assert your boundaries
forgiving yourself when you don't have an answer
saying yes more often
and giving yourself time to think
if the answer is fuzzy

and remembering my mantra
'you are allowed to change your mind'!

Wednesday, 10 July 2019

*.*.* water everywhere

the Chateau d'Eau in Toulouse
used to filter and distribute water from the Garonne
to the public fountains in the city
in 1974 it became one of the first
dedicated photography galleries
Currents Shift
is an exhibition that explores
the concerns connected to the social
and cultural exploitation of the seas
and their surroundings
Marie Lukasiewicz's work 
looks at the scientific and clinical
impact of the economic values of oceans
there's something sinister
and sexy
about her images
the focus on coral
one of our endangered species
bringing a clinical
but aesthetically pleasing
dimension to her 
images
as we look out to sea for reflection
“for most of history, man has had to fight nature to survive
in this century he is beginning to realise that
 in order to survive
 he must protect it.” 
― Jacques-Yves Cousteau

Thursday, 6 June 2019

*.*.* have we known each other forever?

us humans are good at recognising patterns
we make decisions about future patterns
on the bias of our previous experiences
and expected behaviour

"think of those, who not by fault of inconsistency 
but by lack of effort, 
are too unstable to live as they wish, 
but only live as they have begun" 
Seneca ~ On Tranquility of Mind
just because you have always taken one path
it doesn't have to be forever
it takes courage to do things differently 
and make a change
it can be people who effect the change
walking right in to your life
bringing back the you
you'd forgotten to be
until you travelled to a new home

"we travel because we need to
because distance and difference 
are the secret tonic of creativity
when we get home
home is still the same
but something in our mind has changed
and that changes everything"
Jonah Lehrer ~ Why We Travel

Thursday, 30 May 2019

**** one decade later

 this day 10 years ago
I wrote my first blog post

so here I still am
with a message for myself 
3650 days ago
if time travel becomes a thing

dear Denise
(yes you will finally be called 
by your real name and like it)
so much will change in the next years
your eyes will be opened
you'll move away
move on
heartbreak, heartache
arm breaks
you'll lose people along the way
tough times will be replaced by easier
you'll meet some amazing people
on your journeys
see some beautiful places
fall in love with mountains
add the things that bring you joy
plan less, go with the flow
listen, watch, see
be interested and open 
to those who deserve it
sift and shift

your life will be what you make it
and right now it is 
fantastique

Tuesday, 23 April 2019

~~~ above the water line

fancy going to a road trip?
who am I to say no!
we drove to the Herault
to an abandoned village by a lake
Celles is on the shore of Lac du Salagou
merely 143m altitude
it should have disappeared
submerged in the late 1960's
but this didn't happen
the lake is quite otherworldy
with its deep red soil and basalt black rock
volcanic landscape
martian palette
Celles remains abandoned
but protected by chain fences
asleep
maybe one day reawakened