Tuesday, 30 June 2020

\/\/\ when love breaks down

something happened yesterday
it had been building for a little while
I knew it
he knew it
I've been living a story for the last year or so
today, with a big feather quill
I'm dipping it into the pot of ink
and writing a false stop
no regrets, no sadness

“I believe that love is the indispensable fuel for us to go on living.
Someday that love may end.
Or it may never amount to anything.
But even if love fades away, even if it’s unrequited,
you can still hold on to the memory of having loved someone,
of having fallen in love with someone.
And that’s a valuable source of warmth.
Without that heat source,
a person’s heart would turn into a bitterly cold, barren wasteland.
A place where not a ray of sunlight falls,
where the wildflowers of peace,
the trees of hope, have no chance to grow.
Here in my heart,
I plan to use these memories
as my own little fuel source to burn on cold nights,
to keep me warm as I live out what’s left of my own personal life.”

Haruku Murakami

                                                                              Confessions of a Shinagawa Monkey

Monday, 15 June 2020


one of the best gifts I have ever received
was this crazy little kitty
abandoned then found 

 so full of character
a vocal and playful cat
he gave so much love
and was loved so much 

he used up his 9 lives too soon
sail away
my sweet Astro

Wednesday, 1 April 2020

?? strange days ??

here we are in our third week of 'lock down'
social media flooded with figures and theories
our usual patterns disrupted
it's not so easy to keep upbeat ....

but if you look you can see
that people are being creative
in the ways they interact

musicians performing
virtual pub quizzes
discos and dances
birthday parties
any kind of party
film clubs
yoga and meditation
art, language, cooking classes
tips and help
all from their homes
even the technophobes are learning!

this pause will shape how we have been
how we will be in the future
soon we will be free from our little bird cages

Saturday, 25 January 2020

**** it's never goodbye

this man came into our lives when I was small
taking on three children
giving us his name
before giving us a little sister
bringing laughter and fun into our lives
thank you for the good times
the memories
and your love
rest in peace my silly Pops

"hey there Mr Blue
we're so pleased to be with you
look around see what you do
everybody smiles at you" 
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Thursday, 16 January 2020

- - - - en promenade

the time of year when resolutions are made
I never go by that
instead I'm retaining an intention 
the intention to keep walking

at least one hour 
sometimes more
time to think, breathe
and listen to the sounds around me
no targets
no regime
just walking
when I want
where I want
2019 = 652km 

Monday, 2 December 2019

[_] |~| monumental

one day you are at possibly the most famous place
that you saw in those reference books at the library
that you couldn't borrow
the surreal feeling
of seeing it in reality
a vast structure

and looking back at the sea
that you sailed on the day before
a fitting day to end to our time in Greece
back home 
I packed up my life
and moved into a rental house
my stay for a while
until I decide my next steps

oh and a new resident
this little kitten
was found under the bonnet of my mans van
when I was on the island of Astrous
so we named her Astro
when I was settled in my new home
she came to live happily with me

Thursday, 7 November 2019

^~^~^~ endless blue

how to challenge your fear of open water
take a 7 day sailing trip
around the Saronic Islands in the Aegean Sea
on a small boat
with 6 women and a male skipper
of course I was nervous
having never been on a boat smaller than a ferry
those fears melted away
as we visited islands everyday
docking at different a harbour
waking up to the sounds of sail masts
the bustle of water side life
then setting off to a bay for swimming
a new found love of being on the sea
sleeping to the sound of the water
lapping on the side of the boat 
and gazing at the changing shades of blue
each Island very different
like the ladies I travelled with
who were forgiving my quirks
and so very encouraging
as I dipped my shoulders under the Aegean water
sunrises/ sunsets
yoga, laughter, food food food
music, boats, dolphins,
flying fish, sea
our fantastic skipper Petros
and blue 

endless blue

again next year maybe?

Islands & bays we visited ~~
Poros, Docos Bay, Hermione, Metoxi,
Tolo, Nafplion, Astrous, Zagoria, Spetses,
Hydra, Peloponese, Soupia, Aegina, Lagouses, Alimos