Monday, 2 December 2019

[_] |~| monumental

one day you are at possibly the most famous place
that you saw in those reference books at the library
that you couldn't borrow
the surreal feeling
of seeing it in reality
a vast structure

and looking back at the sea
that you sailed on the day before
a fitting day to end to our time in Greece
back home 
I packed up my life
and moved into a rental house
my stay for a while
until I decide my next steps

oh and a new resident
this little kitten
was found under the bonnet of my mans van
when I was on the island of Astrous
so we named her Astro
when I was settled in my new home
she came to live happily with me

Thursday, 7 November 2019

^~^~^~ endless blue

how to challenge your fear of open water
take a 7 day sailing trip
around the Saronic Islands in the Aegean Sea
on a small boat
with 6 women and a male skipper
of course I was nervous
having never been on a boat smaller than a ferry
those fears melted away
as we visited islands everyday
docking at different a harbour
waking up to the sounds of sail masts
the bustle of water side life
then setting off to a bay for swimming
a new found love of being on the sea
sleeping to the sound of the water
lapping on the side of the boat 
and gazing at the changing shades of blue
each Island very different
like the ladies I travelled with
who were forgiving my quirks
and so very encouraging
as I dipped my shoulders under the Aegean water
sunrises/ sunsets
yoga, laughter, food food food
music, boats, dolphins,
flying fish, sea
our fantastic skipper Petros
and blue 

endless blue

again next year maybe?

Islands & bays we visited ~~
Poros, Docos Bay, Hermione, Metoxi,
Tolo, Nafplion, Astrous, Zagoria, Spetses,
Hydra, Peloponese, Soupia, Aegina, Lagouses, Alimos

Wednesday, 4 September 2019

@@@ love the life you live

 this little window
is where I watch the sun rise 
through shutters
 by night we drink beer
play boule
with Portuguese neighbours
one shares the same initials
til the sun sets
under the stars
the clack of metal
the sound of the river
dogs run free
c'est la vie 

Sunday, 18 August 2019

face your fear

the brain is a peculiar thing
it holds deep memory
it pushes negative things into the recesses
and brings positive to the forefront
if you allow

despite living beside the seaside for most of my life
I don't swim but adore being next to  the sea
a lake, a river, an ocean
I have a fear of being in or on open water
born from a childhood incident
that I really don't remember
but my brain does
I walk the shoreline
dip my feet and ankles
but that's as far as I go
until this week ....
I felt the time was right to face my fear
with my hand held
I walked into the lake, to my waist
and dipped my shoulders under the water
looking at the mountains from the water line
calm breath, a smile
for a short moment I lifted my feet from the sand
I was safe
and it felt amazing

Friday, 2 August 2019

^^^ no holds barred

life is a journey
as long as you keep moving forward

“the free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - 
basically because you feel good, very good, 
when you are near or with them.”

― Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Madness

Thursday, 25 July 2019

--- oui ou non

the tug of war between definitives
invites online
we want answers now

or maybe
now this word has been good to me
the get out card of commitment
a nice bold question mark
I've over used it
it was my knee jerk reply
until recently ....
in realisation that good opportunities can be seized
when they come your way
the value of feeling able to assert your boundaries
forgiving yourself when you don't have an answer
saying yes more often
and giving yourself time to think
if the answer is fuzzy

and remembering my mantra
'you are allowed to change your mind'!

Wednesday, 10 July 2019

*.*.* water everywhere

the Chateau d'Eau in Toulouse
used to filter and distribute water from the Garonne
to the public fountains in the city
in 1974 it became one of the first
dedicated photography galleries
Currents Shift
is an exhibition that explores
the concerns connected to the social
and cultural exploitation of the seas
and their surroundings
Marie Lukasiewicz's work 
looks at the scientific and clinical
impact of the economic values of oceans
there's something sinister
and sexy
about her images
the focus on coral
one of our endangered species
bringing a clinical
but aesthetically pleasing
dimension to her 
as we look out to sea for reflection
“for most of history, man has had to fight nature to survive
in this century he is beginning to realise that
 in order to survive
 he must protect it.” 
― Jacques-Yves Cousteau

Thursday, 6 June 2019

*.*.* have we known each other forever?

us humans are good at recognising patterns
we make decisions about future patterns
on the bias of our previous experiences
and expected behaviour

"think of those, who not by fault of inconsistency 
but by lack of effort, 
are too unstable to live as they wish, 
but only live as they have begun" 
Seneca ~ On Tranquility of Mind
just because you have always taken one path
it doesn't have to be forever
it takes courage to do things differently 
and make a change
it can be people who effect the change
walking right in to your life
bringing back the you
you'd forgotten to be
until you travelled to a new home

"we travel because we need to
because distance and difference 
are the secret tonic of creativity
when we get home
home is still the same
but something in our mind has changed
and that changes everything"
Jonah Lehrer ~ Why We Travel

Thursday, 30 May 2019

**** one decade later

 this day 10 years ago
I wrote my first blog post

so here I still am
with a message for myself 
3650 days ago
if time travel becomes a thing

dear Denise
(yes you will finally be called 
by your real name and like it)
so much will change in the next years
your eyes will be opened
you'll move away
move on
heartbreak, heartache
arm breaks
you'll lose people along the way
tough times will be replaced by easier
you'll meet some amazing people
on your journeys
see some beautiful places
fall in love with mountains
add the things that bring you joy
plan less, go with the flow
listen, watch, see
be interested and open 
to those who deserve it
sift and shift

your life will be what you make it
and right now it is 

Tuesday, 23 April 2019

~~~ above the water line

fancy going to a road trip?
who am I to say no!
we drove to the Herault
to an abandoned village by a lake
Celles is on the shore of Lac du Salagou
merely 143m altitude
it should have disappeared
submerged in the late 1960's
but this didn't happen
the lake is quite otherworldy
with its deep red soil and basalt black rock
volcanic landscape
martian palette
Celles remains abandoned
but protected by chain fences
maybe one day reawakened 

Sunday, 21 April 2019

:::: lost in translation

learning a language 
is easier when you live where it is spoken
you pick up the slang, the abbreviated
the phrases and sayings
and the nuances of regional dialects
here being Occitane, Ariegois and Catalan
you worry less about the le and the la
the correct tense and endings
you just go with it

but when it's 2am 
and you're feeling fine
with wine
try explaining cockney rhyming slang 
it ain't bright and breezy to bubble and squeak, treacle

Monday, 15 April 2019

~~ keep your balance

the human body is full of bacteria
some good
some bad
E. coli is the best known bacterium 
that regularly associates itself with humans
it is the most studied of all bacteria
a sequence of 4,288 genes on its chromosome
but we don't entirely understand
its relationship with humans
and their normal flora
both host and bacteria benefit from each other
and the feeling is mutual
nutrients, a stable environment, protection

there are also parasitic flora
who live at the expense of the host
opportunistic infectors
striking when defences are let down

sometimes the relationship between them
can't be deciphered
where there is no apparent benefit or harm to either
a commensal relationship

thinking on this
when you visit a new country
or become close to people
your flora can be unbalanced
your normal shaken up
it takes time for you to adjust
but it's up to you to notice
wait for things to calm
or take action to make it right

Thursday, 4 April 2019

t = [ ln (Nf/No) / (-0.693) ] x t1/2

getting back my reading mojo
delving into books
I never thought I'd enjoy
or get past the first few pages
or even understand
but this book 
I can't put down
carbon-14 is in all living things
when living things die
they stop taking in carbon-14 
and so the radioactive clock is reset
reliable detective work for carbon dating
if the thing is less than 60 000 years old
we all know about counting tree rings 
it's called
each ring a year of growth 
tell tale by it's size
changes in climate, weather, illness
trees keep growing until the die

the creationists debunk
the conspiracists conspire
instead of convincing us it's not true
maybe show us how it is?

Sunday, 17 March 2019

^^ above

right up there
is Montsegur
I can see this Chateau
most days
when it's not under cloud
but this day
and I were

'the point is, not to resist the flow: 
you go up when you're supposed to go up and down when you're supposed to go down: 
when you're supposed to go up, find the highest tower and climb to the top: 
when you're supposed to go down, find the deepest well and go down to the bottom:
when there's no flow, stay still:
if you resist the flow, everything dries up:
if everything dries up, the world is darkness'

― Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

Saturday, 9 March 2019


time doesn't move in a steady way
you notice when it slows
and stops

sometimes you need some
chaos in your life
to shift your perspective
turn your head
shake up your normal

Monday, 25 February 2019

~~ Ⓐ ℟ȶ℮

there's plenty of creativity here
but those who know me
know I like edgy and challenging
things that make me go oOo
this expo with 100's of stands
had something for everyone
including me
here's my picks ~

this colour palette and light 
by Pierre Riollet
carnaval de rio, 1922
by Sonia Delauney
still fresh and moderne
like mirrors of the soul
Da Vinci advised artists to stare for a long time
at old walls in order to find in them
familiar shapes to stimulate imagination
yes that's lego graffiti 
both by Lenz
lots of 3 dimensional art 
and I love the colour palette and form
by Swiz
simple strokes like Dior sketches
folded paper and paint
by Laetitia Vidal
beautiful girls
best in show for me 
metal lingerie
plenty of playful 
crazy stands
hologram 3d art is back 
there was so much more
until the next expo